Thats it ..back to beginning

Some time back i had a profound talk with the chief of jalim lotion or so ..vaguely remember..but he is a jaina and eighty years plus ..it was dasara time and the city is vibrant with festive mood .. he says that he is on fasting for last 8 days ..i was surprised to hear the same that he is on coconut water diet and doing extremely good ...seeing my surprise he introduced his son who is 60 plus and is on fasting for more than a month ..same diet rules ..even more surprised ..then his grand son who is 40 pls was introduced who says that he too on fast for 45 days ..this time i am zapped ...said not to bother to introduce his great grand son who might aswell feeding on coconut water for more than two months .. the point we discussed on the masochism is opt for reaching spiritual heights or not ..He did not argue but says Yadha dristi thathaa sristi ... well the point now i am making is on the metaphysical solipsism which is the point ... post two decades when i am trying to comprehend the metaphysical solipsism i am getting a glimpse of the same and more or less agreeing the point . The concourses of time gives all types of feels and emotions the surrealistic as there is no past or future or even present .. it is flowing and we are trying to afloat trying to waddle in the direction of our choice of selection where the destination and direction are already programmed .

All types of experiences are being generated from mind and well within ..on the screen of mind the various connects gets projected and we call experiences . we are in predefined journey and unable to connect with the time and being floated away trying to be either in past or future missing out the split of present ..Human brain cannot comprehend the super game flow and that is the reason of all misery or joy or what ever in the journey of birth to death .Now has a feel that the metaphysical solipsism is all in reality ..so back to square one and running in circles on a hedonistic treadmill..Hope the life quality improves after all ..